stupid fucking knot in the pit of my stomach..
UGH FUCK!!!!!!.
my brain is stuck on repeat..
while tonight was fun..
it felt a bit forced.
i hate that.
fuck fuck fuck......
shit shit shit...
i don't want a facade..
i want reality..
i'll strive for it until there is nothing else i can do..
i hate that right now i am a fucking indecisive wreck..
i wanna be alone so bad right now.
but the more i am alone the more insane i go in thought...
fuck....
-M.
p.s. the cursing helps.