silver lining.

its strange when you allow yourself to be seen by someone who doesn't know you that well.
yesterday.
i was sick i still am but yesterday was the worst of it.
cold sweats, fever, shaking, coughing to no end.
and i allowed myself to be taken care of.
and i kept thanking him and just saying i was surprised its been a while since i've been treated like that.
he wrapped me up and healed me.
at least to acertain degree.
and i was grateful.
and it made me look at him differently.
and i hope this isn't just the lack of affection lately thats talkin or like
florence nightengale syndrome.
but it was nice to be cared for is all i mean.
-M