cheese danish

so i haven't blogged in a while.
but it's strange because the internet has become my home..
i mean.
there is never really a time when i'm not on..
unless i'm at work..
and then it's like as soon as i get home bam i'm on the internet once again.
even today i mean.
at&t switched our internet to somethin else or something so we lost connection last night up until maybe tonight
so i left for work early and am now at starbucks.. enjoying a carmel macchiato and cheese danish.
bad i know.
it's a sick addiction ..
whats an even worse addiction.
the people i meet and talk to via..
makeoutclub, okcupid, craigslist.. yeah it doesn't end.
i wish i had an easier time meeting people in an organic setting.
but alas.
for example.
i went to a show the other day..
and i mean.
it was a great show the bands two in paticular were fucking amazing.
but i mean i was lonely the music didn't help the lonliness just enhance it .
marcella says its easy to meet people..
especially girls.
just go up to someone and be like
"omg i love your shoes"
and strike up a conversation..
but i don't exactly look or act like taht kind of person.
unless well i know you..
ugh.
so
online people..
they are the best ..my kin..
i told marcella i've been meeting people online since i was 15..
which is more than true..
maybe that's just a habit i can't break..
i mena back in the day it was aol chat rooms.
but now..
social networking sites have taken over..
but i really don't mind.
it makes the screening easier.. at least to a certain degree.
i mean i don't talk to anyone i'm not comfortable i only give my fb out to people who seem cool.
its all harmless really..
but marcella. sees it as a huge game.
she took her okcupid account and had some fun with it..
made herself into a white power girl type of person..
and well did somethin a bit bad..
some guy started messaging her.
and gave her his number so she posted it on her profile saying she was DTF *down to fuck* any time and yeah.. wow..
that is bad.
i mean love her.. guys fuck with girls a lot and i mean anyone interested in a girl for purely sinister reasons and being a racist needs to be fucked with .
but i could never do something like that..
so yeah;.
i have a few people i'm talking to online right now.
stuart is still around of course..i still adore him..
but yeah.
there is also ricky.
nerdy tattooed musician in michigan.
bethany
tattooed 18year old who wants to be a midwife and smokes a lot of pot
chris
complete introvert who i share long messages with.
about anything and everything..
so the only one that has gotten serious out of these people is stuart..
and well yeah.
i don't mind..
i mean maybe i'll meet up with bethany because she is the closest and totally adorable.
and maybe if i don't end up with a makeout buddy i'll at least end up with a friend..
though i hate that that would be the way to meet friends.
with alterior motives you know?.
but i mean she is very cute..
and a complete nerd as well.
talks about how she want a tattoo of middle earth..
things are going well at work

talk of a promotion of sorts..
not a real promotion but a raise and more responsibility..
which i am excited about..
i mean .
what if i become the pastry chef at this restaurant.
i mean.
that's really fucking exciting
and i'm at a point in my life where i do want to be on the hot line.
but really i'll take what i can get because i'm so new..
the only problem with this is that..
like karolina.. i won't have anyone to look up to.
this will require me to really be creative myself. and explore what i can do and what facets i have inside of me.. to either create something new or just hone my skills when it comes to baking and pastries..
which excites me to no end..
so yeah..
-M
p.s. i need to learn how to make vegan pastries like cheese danishes and such..
especially since we have vegan cream cheese at work i mean fuck cheese danishes are fuckign awesome..