we had an antipasti buffet today
it was pretty awesome.
but the thing that seemed to upset everyone
is that we didn't get our demo on cheese making.
we made mozzarella and thats it and we hardly even made it.
it was pretty much already made and we formed it.
it's also become crazy upseting that everytime we are asked to do something
in a classroom setting might i add.
we have to clue why we're doing it.
we follow her blindly and that's what gets me upset even more.
shes tells me what to do today.and
15 min into me doing it a person asks why..
and i'm like..
well..
i don't know she just told me to do it.
so i dunno.
international is up next and i'm excited but even more excited over sushi tomorrow.
yum.
-M
p.s. watch the cove..
it will make you not want to eat sushi
and support the fight against the murder of dolphins and the complete disregard certain parts in japan has for our planet and everyone else in the world.

making cheeses tomorrow.
excitedly nervous..
my leg has been hurting all day and im not sure why.
hoping it will go away by the morning..
i got an 85 on my test last week..
all my chef ever does is tear us down.
we can never get it completely correct
not that i expect her to give us a gold star everytime we get it right.
but .. i dunno.
an 85 is a good grade..
but why do i still feel like i did a horrible job..
i always say the wrong thing.
and think the wrong way.
i'm hoping things work themselves out i'm loving what i'm doing.
but the way this chef talks..well.
i don't think of money that way.
i have no desire to really do the things she talks about doing.
money doesn't make the world go round in my head
maybe i'm wrong but it doesn't feel wrong in my heart..
i need to start looking for a place to extern because i'll be leaving for it in september.
and after that the real world which scares me even more.
i really wanna start looking into organic slow cooking if not vegan and vegetarian cuisine.
because that's what is important to me.
i love rustic heartfelt food.
not food that has been broken down and turned into more of exhibit while eating than a meal.
not that it doesn't take talent..
it takes more talent that i might ever possess
i just..
i'm finally starting to realize what i want
and what i want is definately not the norm.
-m

i ♥ the oscars

Mostly for the fact that it sometimes helps me discover new films that i may have over looked for the year..
but secretly for the fashion..
i adore all the hollywood glamour..
especially old hollywood glamour..
lauren becall's appearance at the oscars made me gush.
anyways.
i really need to see the hurt locker now.
-m
p.s. my favorites of the night..

Sandra Bullock: i love the old hollywood glam here.she looks amazing even if she resembles the oscar statue a bit.

Nicole Richie: she always pulls off that sixties style with ease. and this picture doesn't do the dress justice because it has a very low back, making it very sexy.
Kate Winslet: do i really need to say anything?..
she is brilliant.
she would look amazing in a paper bag.

Carey Mulligan: i love how youthful-ly goth this dress feels but i'm also in love with those shoes.

Anna Kendrick: omg this dress is so beautiful..

you can see the detail as well as i'd like on it..

and it blends into her skin a bit..

but wow ..i just adore this dress.

p.s.s what were your favorites of the night?..

i hate nights like these.
where the air is cold but quiet.
it makes my stomach and heart uneasy.
the moments where it feels like my feet will never hit the ground.
those moments come from nights like these.
i feel something bad is going to happen.
i want to be wrong.
-m

i need to be a redhead immediately

8:30 and i've yet to begin getting ready.
i've been starting to get that panic-y
feeling in the pit of my stomach when things
are going to go wrong.
it was my grandfathers birthday yesterday
i sent him a package of old man goodies.
A newsboy cap, slippers, and some argyle socks.
i tried to find a cardigan but my funds weren't sufficient.
i hope he likes it..
i put my dad's name on the card even though he had nothing to do with it.
i wish he cared more.
-m

i start wine studies and literature and composition tomorrow..
excited for the literature part because linquist is fun to look at which is my instructor..
i'm so tired from this weekend..
but it was fun..
wolfman was only okay..
i wanted it to be amazing but not so much..
it's storyline was kind of everywhere..
and i found myself trying to stay awake instead of at the edge of my seat..
ugh..
oh well..
-m