damn you jenny lewis

i've been feeling really overwhelmed lately i love what i'm doing and i'm so happy i'm doing it but life in the kitchen isn't what i expected. i think it's more of a group thing that causes me to feel the way i'm feeling. there is this uneasy chaos in the air when i'm in the labs this constant running like the faster we get this done the better it will be when that never is the case. so there is constantly something wrong or somebody spilling something or some other mishap like that. it sucks i mean it's awesome but it sucks. i'm not quitting no way but i just want it feel different which i'm sure it will i'm just a bit overwhelmed. i need to breathe more and think less well less about all the million things going on in my head..
anyways..
this week i've made:
ratoullie
braised leeks
glazed carrot
risotto
rice pilaf
pommes puree
and plenty of knife cuts and take home stuff.
i've been okay
i've gotten fair marks on everything
it's either really good seasoning but you needed to let the rice split first before adding stock
or
good texture but you needed more seasoning..
oye vay.
yeah well
it's been well
i've been better though i must say i'm not excited about the quiz tomorrow thats for sure
and the burn on my arm still hurts fucking oven.. aagghhh.
-M.
p.s. my feet hurt bad.
p.s.s. jenny lewis' meloncholy music isn't making me feel much happier but i can't help but listen...