new years resolutions

1. wash my face everyday and stop touching my face(my hands get oily and it only makes my skin worse)
2. make the switch to vegetarian ( not trying to go vegan this year but vegetarian is a must)
3. grow out my hair
4. get contacts
5. go home at least once.
6. spend more time with the man aka the vampire aka the honey badger.
7 . more exploration of chicago.
8.maybe get more fit. ( i hate working out but i have to figure out something)

"The saving graces were the cocktails and dessert. The mixologist did a great job on corps revior #2, the anise was there but did not kill the other flavors. The hazelnut panna cotta was probably the closest one could get to a true panna cotta with vegan substitutes, and the pairing with orange, chocolate, and brittle was absolutely delicious. The brittle by the way, was also a highlight. Totally buttery without an oz of butter"

the above is a recent review from yelp.com
making it all seem worth it.
i love those moments. where realizing people are enjoying what you cook or bake makes it seem worth all the bullshit that comes with working where you do.
so I just got a second job at a health food/ vegan/ vegetarian cafe.
another 20 hours a week to go with my 24-30 hrs i'm doing at karyns.
i'm super excited about it to.
i mean. the atmostphere is completely different it feels like a team where there aren't any secrets or shifty pettiness or passive aggressive tendencies.
its a newish start that might make me increasingly tired but i feel more excited than i have in a while. btw i have to start taking more photos of my food.
-M

Like crazy...

got out of work early and since someone decided to jump in front of one of the cta blue line. i decided to go see a movie at the landmark in lakeview.
i chose like crazy.
i have been wanting to see it since watching the trailer when it first came out.
anton yelchin in romantic sad possibly devastating role. sign me up.
so.
movie starts.
i don't immediately enjoy the doe eyed overbite brit but damn i will say she grows on you quick.
this film portrays young first love in a real way and while parts were difficult to watch
because you felt so involved they are relatable characters. flawed and hopeful you want so bad for it to work all while knowing it rarely does. you keep this hope because they do.
you feel the love.
but instead of feeling hopeful by the end of the film. i was a bit underwhelmed..not necessarily with the film but of the emotions it evoked from me. i mean lets say you can meet that person again the person you fell so in love with meet them again now.
the love is still there but you are different they are different.
change is inevitable.
and you outgrow the love you crave at least this is in my case.
that was true when i arrived back home last may.
but i didn't realize it till now.
i'm sorry if i spoiled anything i tried to be vague.
which i still kind of think i was.
this is my interpretation of it anyways.
there will be many i'm sure.
either way i recommend you see this film.
for the hopeless romantic in you that also has a cynical side.
<3M
p.s. i leave you with a quote from the film
i did lovew this film and plan on adding it to my collection
it will sit next to blue valentine and 500 days of summer
"I thought I understood, but I didn't, not really. Only the smudgeness of it, the eagerness of it, the idea of it, of you and me"

Countdown

so today i made an impulse purchase at B&N. (Barnes and Noble)
which is entitled GEEK GIRLS UNITE by LESLIE SIMON
and i cannot put it down.
i don't know i feel like yeah its speaking to me but not just that its a manifesto for girls like me.
and that yeah its okay.. and rather be proud.
and since i'm not particularly into just one section of the book
i.e.
FANGIRL GEEK
LITERARY GEEK
FILM GEEK
MUSIC GEEK
FUNNY-GIRL GEEK
DOMESTIC GODDESS GEEK
i feel like while i am mostly film i possess qualities of all these awesome geekery sections.
and i fully intend on embracing them even more so.
so.
in further geekery sectioned off in the film horror catagory.
i watched splice tonight.
adrien brody and sarah polley.
and
well first spoiler alert.
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..
...
while the movie was pretty decent.
there were some scenes in it. that well.
weren't necessarily graphic in nature.
but whatever sort of lady wood i would of had was immediately diminished.
and i mean when your guy turns to you after a certain scene and says yeah i don't think we'll be having sex tonight.
i think that the movie has either done its job.. or.. completely hasn't..
i'm not quite sure on that one.
so .
the spoiler is.
adrien brody fucks the creation..
and then the creation fucks sarah polley.
to much just thinking about it.
um not so much.
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so work.
they cut my hours.
the first time they have in the year that i have been working there.
and well.
i can't decide if i'm crazy annoyed or not.
time will tell.
i have a feeling my time there is well on some sorta timer.
i'm not sure.
everything feels shaky.
and i know i annoy the fuck out of john.
and well.
i guess thats fine.
are personalities are way to similar to the point where we never know when eachother is just fucking around or serious.
he sees me as the joy sucking, bitch.
and i really don't know what i see him as.
but its fucked.
...
so my birthday dinner was awesome.
we went to http://lulacafe.com/
i had the lamb breast and omg.
so awesome.
and fatty and unexpected.
it was very romantic.
and it got me out of the slump that i've been burying myself in lately.
i don't know whats wrong with me..
i usually began most posts with that before.
but i've been off lately.
in my head to much again.
but i will say our place is finally starting to come together.
....
so.
that is all for now.
oh did i mention my hair is luscious raspberry at the moment.
blue again next. i miss blue envy.
until next time.
-M
p.s. big bang gets bret spiner OMG. awesome!

luscious raspberry

feeling so blah today ..
will fully take advantage of my day off.
by lounging watching reruns of bad tv shows.
dying my hair.
doing laundry and all around cleaning up the box cluttered apartment we now have.
josh is working . i'll see him late tonight birthday in three days.
scary excited.
-M
will post pictures later

your woman-white town

little things that make me happy:
when my shitty ass self hair cut just happens to fall just right ( i rarely get a good hairday so when i do this is enjoyed)
listening to crazy ninties music that i had forgotten about..
soy pumpkin spice lattes.
when i lay off dairy for long enough so my skin clears up.
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so the comic book show was a bit of a bust.
i mean it was fine i got my shit signed but he was in an interview and sorta waved the girl away who was trying to get a signature for me.
very disrespectful.
interview or not.
either way i still respect his artwork like a crazy amount but i'm gonna look into him and see if he has any original stories.
gonna go into work again tomorrow on my day off
need to figure this shit out.
pumpkin cheesecake needs a new crust.
and some sorta glaze.
and i wanna do a bread pudding.
will work on tomorrow.. please don't letme be there all day though.
ugh.

skottie young

so today.. i have to head home stop at the store for some food goods.

and then .. heading out to go to a skottie young signing and maybe buy an original art piece that is oz related. if its not to expensive.

uber nerd and only getting nerdier then i have to head back home and research coffee related ice cream or mousse of some sort.

so i am off..

wish me luck.

-M